Random Talk #05: Dream

Assalamualaikum and hello,

"I keep dreaming everyday. Dream something big. A various kind of dreams that I really want to possess. A possession that somehow eats my sane from time to time.

Whenever I tried to figure it out about that dream, I keep wondering. Doubting myself;

Do I really need to do this?

How am I gonna achieve this task?

Am I good enough to create the miracle out of it?

Am I strong enough to become the way I am right now?

Overthinking about it and that makes me cry even more, rotting inside out. I smiled to you. But, I cannot hide anything from you.

My expression

My figure

My walking style

My attitude towards you

My self-conscious

My thoughts

Sometimes, I happy. Sometimes, I sad.
Sometimes, I have fun. Sometimes, I mad. Because of the dreams that I will never get possessed nor keeping it forever.

Having the mind that thinks about getting everything and keep it. It's too dangerous. It's like, you're becoming obsessed with that dream and you will do anything to get it, even with someone cut you out from that path. Sooner or later, it'll become a disease. A contagious one that will attack your heart and soul, becoming corpse in the process.

The more I dream about my tasks, the more I'm suffering myself in the process. People surrounding are like parasites. Eating your thoughts with nasty accusations and notorious judgements about yourself. After several years, you become a different person and when you faced that kind of person, you said;

Who cares?

In your heart you whispered but at the end, you will feel pity about them, as you know their paths are far more difficult than yours.

So...

What is your dream anyway?"