NAM: The Random Expressionist

Assalamualaikum wbt. To replace a broken heart is not easy. It is not like, you operate your body, take your heart that is full of wounds and cuts and replace it with the brand new heart. It is not like that! I always feel heartbroken. Every single days I face with the same thing all over again. It feels like I deserved to get a deja vú everyday because of my own mistakes. They will think I'm happy with my own life. Live the way that you want. But, at the same time, you feel guilty for the one you let them trust you the most in their life. I always feel like I'm just a replacement for the one who should be with them. I always feel like that. Even if they say that it is not like that. The way they treat you is different when they are with their true besties. A replacement for not miss them too much. That is how it works in my world. Sometimes, they might say, "Hey! That's too much! I never think like that for God's sake!" But then, the way they tell you th...

"There's nothing to talk about As you're already have someone you can share your story about your life with someone you close too; There's nothing to talk about As you will just ignore it and focusing on the more juicier stories from others; There's nothing to share As the stories will always become the same till you feel like you wanna puke; You don't have to ask about me As I'm just a mere follower, not a person you used to know before; Counting days to leave this place and I assure you, you'll never find me and forget about our time together. Even if you tried to deny it, that's the truth. I wonder, do you really think of me as a friend or a tool?" NAM 01062016 #RandomTalk #mynameisNAM